My, now that's what you call a hiatus

So I haven't written in 5 months. And most of you have guessed, a lot has happened. See, chronicling everything isn't really a good idea, especially when people love to relish the drama your posts exude. However, to cut the long story short, here I am, opening 2013 with a new kind of journey, to say the least.

Things have been quite turbulent, but I know that the hardest decisions are usually the right ones. It's easy for people to say "give it one more shot" or that "marriage is supposedly a til death do us part" kind of thing; but really, one must consider all options - those options being the healthiest for you, and for your baby. No one coached me into doing what I had to do; no one. Taking a look back at how I have spent the last 5 years of my life, it's made me realize that I haven't been making the best decisions, because I kept "trying to make it work", when clearly, these kinds of things take years to work on - not 5 days, not a week, not a month. Years.

Being the visual person that I am, I found myself imagining all those ugly scenes in my head; and after watching the perks of being a wallflower, I have accepted the love that I thought I deserved -- if it really was love. Sometimes, the need to be with someone, and the need to prove people that you can settle down, can cloud your judgment, and trick you into thinking that you have an epic love; when all you really had was an unhealthy relationship with someone. Yes, the love was there. It still is. But I have to consider my life with my daughter now, and how I wouldn't want her to experience what I had to go through.

I'll never say never (oh wait, I just did. lol.) but for now, I will take things in stride; focus more on work, on being the best mother, sister, daughter, and friend. I will say yes to healing, forgiveness, and embracing the right kinds of adventure. I will not be stupid and be reckless. I will do things my daughter will be proud of. Let's see what happens in the coming months; but for now, I will say yes to me. and Laela.