Know that I love you

In spite of everything you're going through right now, know that I care.
Even though people might make a joke out of your situation, know that I love you.
You may be away from home most of the time, and our bonding moments over Mudshake and cigarettes might not happen soon, but know that you are in my thoughts all the time.

I am not only a daughter and a mother.
I'm also a sister.
A sister who cares, who comforts, and who makes sure that her other sisters are taken care of. My time may be very limited, and I may not have the freedom to do what I wish all the time, but what I do know is, for you, I will not be limited. My prayers will not be limited,  more importantly, my love will never be limited.

Being the first person in the family to know about your situation, makes me feel... good and bad at the same time. Good, because you felt that you could trust me, and for that I am grateful. Bad, because I feel like I should have done something a long time ago, yet everything just sunk in when I caught you in the bathroom, looking like you saw a ghost when you discovered I was in the doorway.

This is hard, but this is what family does. To be there for you when things get rough; to be there for you in spite of the silence. To hold your hand, give you a tight hug, chain you to the bed if we have to.

Most of all, to love you, for what you are, and what you plan to become.

I love you dear sister. Know that I do, that I always have, and I always will.