It's been 3 months since I gave birth to you, and you've been nothing but awesome. I remember being so sleepless when they roomed you in with us at the hospital, and I ended up staying awake for 48 hours. I could never fathom how I was able to survive, and how my body was able to handle such stress; but I knew, that staying awake for you was going to be forever worth it.
I remember how I cried when I first held you; after hearing the doctors say "OK na, ayan na!" I couldn't wait to hold you. I remember hearing your first cry, and experiencing your first latch. I remember everything, much more than I remember portions of my 'past life' before we had you.
You see, you have made me feel more alive, and being able to hold you for the first time awoken my purpose here on earth - I was meant to be a mom. I was meant to be YOUR mom.
Your daddy and I have struggled through the years, but have managed to stay in love with each other in spite of everything. When we lost our first baby, I thought I wasn't going to handle it anymore; I was so scared when I found out I was pregnant again, and the first thing that entered my mind was "I'm not going to lose this one; I can't lose this one".
You're growing up so fast. I can't believe in 3 months time, you'll be able to turn over, giggle, and start "singing/talking" to us. Seeing your gummy smile zaps all my stress away, and every time I have to leave for work, I instantly count the hours until I can come home to you again.
Our lives have been so much better and much more colorful with you around. I have never seen your grammy THIS happy.. I have never seen your daddy THIS happy.
There's a lot for you to learn, but for now, crawling and talking will do. We love you baby Laela, and I hope we end up to be parents whom you can be proud of, and whom you can love back immensely.
<3,
Mommy
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