Makes everything all better.
I have come to realize that being emotional about things makes it easier for the demons in your life to catch up to you. Although everyone needs a good cry once in a while, the tears are best kept in the confines of your own home, where the people who truly matter to you are the only ones who are aware of how you truly feel.
Today marked my daughter's first turn over -- a milestone, that most babies achieve during their 4th month, Laela was able to do in her 3rd :)
This alone, is a blessing for me, and my husband was lucky enough to have been the one to witness it.
The past few weeks were clouded with negativity, no matter how hard I tried to fight it. There were moments when I felt that I wanted to leave, to disappear, just so I can get away from everything; from everyone.
But then I realized that letting people get to you is not worth it. Focusing on the bad will only bring more bad in your life, when there's so much to be thankful for. As I stated in my Facebook status, don't decide, speak, or act upon something, unless your heart & mind are in the right place. Emotions always get the best of us - we're human, and we're highly susceptible to acting impulsively. Sometimes, we need to take a breather and to take a step back in order to see things in a different perspective; to review and analyze why people act in a certain way, or why people don't like you at all. They may have their reasons, but at the end of the day, what matters the most is if you're happy with who you are, and if you think God is happy the way you are, then you're fine.
I'm glad that I was able to stand up for what I believed was right, and that I was able to confront what I had to face. I know it takes great courage to stand up to people, but it also takes great courage to be able to swallow what people have to tell you. People will never be perfect, and I know I'll never be. I guess as long as I am able to respect others, and to make sure that I don't step on other people or offend my friends, then I guess I'll be pretty happy with how I've become. I may not be the perfect wife, mother, daughter, sister, or employee...but I know I try my best to be there for the people who matter. I know I try my best to deliver at work, and I know that I try my best to be able to attend to the needs of my family, either emotional or financial.
I'm not sure if the bridges that have been burnt are still worth salvaging... it sucks when relationships end, and when the people whom you thought were never gonna stab you in the back end up doing so... there's room for forgiveness, and I know that things can be patched up, but maybe not now. Bahala na lang. If it's meant to happen, then it will. :)
At the end of the day, I'd rather focus on the people who genuinely care about me... if others decide to make an effort to bring back what used to be, then I'm all for it; but for now, I'm fine with taking things one day at a time :)
No comments:
Post a Comment