First

I haven't written a blog entry...in the longest time. I guess I didn't have the luxury of time anymore, knowing that I have more responsibilities on my shoulders.

I could never get how women do it -- how to be a great wife, a model employee, and a responsible mother, while still keeping at least 90% of their sanity in tact. I'm still on maternity leave, but the pressure of coming back to work, and taking care of my husband and my daughter, is slowly taking its toll. I have to make sure that our house is clean, that I get to take care of Laela, our daughter, AND I have to make sure I get to cook so we can have something to eat.

Yes, I know, it's so easy for me to get a maid so I don't have to do pretty much everything, but the thing is, it's not that easy to get someone you can trust, most especially that we're new in this area, not to mention, our street is full of ... "people watchers" AKA mga tambay sa barber shop, karinderya, at vulcanizing shop. Imagine our paranoia, especially when we have to leave our baby alone, should we get a helper.

Mahirap na ang panahon ngayon. Mahirap magtiwala.

And plus, having a maid will entail additional cost. Every time you go out, alanganamang iwan mo sa bahay ang maid, at hindi mo pakainin... having a baby already incurs additional expenses...what more a maid -- a full-grown human being?

Anyway.

I have roughly 2 weeks left in my leave, and I'll be coming back to work on the 1st of June. Mind you, I've been transferred to a different team, which means, I'd have to learn new processes once more. The thing is, I like change, and I like being challenged. I just hope I can live up to peoples' expectations, especially MY OWN.

Lastly.

Miracle how I was able to cook today. Thank God for Laela's basket, I was able to put her down for a bit, and deep fry them wings for my husband. In all fairness, and thanks to McCormick, my husband loved them :D